wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

Blah.
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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Last day in may.

Um, Today's the last day in may. tomorrow is June 1st, but I'm sure you know that.

This serves as important to me because that means there are 17 days left in my collegiate life.
Graduation (and real life) shall soon be here. and although I will be really happy to be done with classes
and assignments, problems sets, papers, lectures, discussion sections, office hours, grades, I'll miss everything that  Northwestern as offered me, the people, the experiences, they were truly amazing. This was really the greatest time of my life, and I hope it only gets better from here. It has to.

But only about four (or five) things stand in my way until that glorious day:
Philosophy assignment Due tomorrow
Philosophy of Ed Paper Due Monday
Reading in Content Area due Thursday
Math Paper (yeah I know) due Wednesday next week
Math final (may or may not have to take) also next Wednesday...

But good thing I'll be done with classes on Thursday so that will be a MAJOR milestone as well.

The future looks bright, i mean my life is totally ahead of me. And I hope it's ready, cuz I'm not (haha).           But I will be in time. Yeah I'm scared and nervous about how things are going to turn out at work, living on my own, bills and loans and stuff. I feel like I shouldn't be that worried because it gonna work out. I'm just realizing those days dependence and kinda-sorta dependence that college gave are winding down. I can do it though. so I'm not that discouraged....

......besides me being worried about the future and graduation and such,

I had my last Dillo Day, it was great. Not as thrown as last year, I actually remembered stuff. Bad thing I saw some of my students from Evanston, which  totally kinda ruined my mood, but I think it's all good...I had a great day..

I wanted to babble on some more, but  I just don't feel like typing no more. But I think I'm definitely going to keep a blog/records of my first year of teaching, either here or on my tumblr, which ever easier for me to do or I feel like is necessary, but that's far from now.....

so I'll be busy getting at those four/five things. Going home this weekend, which I haven't been to all quarter, I just didn't want to, but it should be fun to see the Fam.

bam.
that's it.
I'll give a random picture...just cuhz

hilarious

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!

WTF?!

so you probably know about Kanye crazy self at the VMA's &

also Lil Mama. I'm not gonna give my opinion on that foolishness. I'll just say

WTF?!

though here's some funny parody pics of both of their antics.....

(btw RIP Patrick Swayze, I just wanna watch Ghost right now)...

okay this last one is really hilarious.....

another WTF moment. ....

Serena Williams threatening people. WTF?!....control yo tempa woman............

....whoa.....I mean I'm just saying I would never want to have moment in my life where Serena would be screaming at me the way she is in this video....I'm just saying have you seen her....whoa..

okay one more...

First, I hate Ohio State (because it's not Northwestern) so this make this video even more hiliarious. What's sad about this is this is probably the highlight of this tuba player marching career, and dare I say

college career. WTF?! where you really moving that hard that you had to knock on the cameraman seriously.......

that's why Ohio State lost that game....dumbass....hahahah jk...

until next time...

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

I Wonder how I would look as a White man?

With inspiration from Watermelon Man, I asked myself this question.
So what did I do? I googled it.
Well actually I googled "changing race in a picture", which took me to this blog (check out the funny pics of Lil' Wayne) , which then took me too this web site, The Face Transformer.

Using this old photo from about 2.5 years ago

(yeha don't look like this anymore but whatev...it's me)....

I wanted to see how I would look as a white person.....





& of course I tried out the other Transformations.

Older person

(Lord, please don't let me look like that...)

East Asian
As a woman
(sorta, the actual Transformation was Feminise)


As a Apeman (50% Chimp)
El Greco (??)

From these pictures, I most definitely think God knew what he was doing when he created me....kool pics though...

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Movie Rambling...

so since I haven't been up to much
I have been watching tons & tons of stuff,
including movies (with On Demand and such).
Here's a list of ones I thought was worth mentioning...

*sidenote: Don't think I updated about this on here, but me and my friends decided to come up with a Black Movie List ( I think the official title is Black-tackular...). A Black Movie is movie where the main character(s) are black...basically (at least to me) there has to me 3 or more main black characters...but anywayz some movies will be Black-tackular worthy...so that's what that means.*

1. Double Platinum

this movie stars Diana Ross & Brandy, came out in the '90s. Anywayz I found this movie highly enjoyable (more than I expected I guess). I mean there was singing and even a little drama. oh, the plot, so Diana Ross is Brandy's mother. Diana Ross is a star, and Brandy is an upcoming one. (yeha so they get to sing). But I enjoyed it. I think it's definitely Black-tackular worthy.

2.Final Destination

watched this one On Demand. I was looking for something with drama and thrill, and I thought this would be it. Okay, It Def was. so that airplane scene was crazy, wait the whole movie was crazy. I feel like someone has to be crazy/suicidal to think of different ways for people to die. Though, I do want to watch the rest of the series now. But I def had to watch something funny after this (even though it wasn't that scary)...just so I would think about it. It was actually a "scary" movie and not gory.

3.The Bingo Long Traveling All-Stars & Motor Kings

Yes, a long title = hilarity. Really enjoyed this film. Kinda old, came out in the '70s (as you see I don't try to get correct dates, who cares?). But it stars Billy Dee Williams & James Earl Jones (Love how it's their whole names) who are pretty young in this film, at least compared to now. It's basically a sports movie (baseball), but actually really funny. At first I didn't really get the humor (idk sometimes I'm really slow). But this is most def black-tackular worthy.

4. Fantastic four 2: Rise of the Silver Surfer

I remember seeing the first one, and I thought it was pretty awesome (at least what I could remember of it) but I found the sequel to be really lame (per usual). I don't know it wasn't exciting to me at all. It sucked. One funny thing: I forgot Kerry Washington's character was blind, I was just like what happened to her?! cuz she had such a funny look on her face. Then someone said something and I was like oh she's blind. Other than that really didn't like it. I know what it was. It got to outer spacey. yeha.......

5. Cube

Okay really enjoyed this movie. About seven people who find themselves in place full of cubes. And basically try to escape. That's all I have to say. It was a pretty good movie though. It really interested me, the math involved in the movie (cuz I'm geek......). If there was more black people in this movie it would definitely be black-tackular (i think one of the guys was mixed....maybe he might've been hispanic or something). but it's not soooooo.....

6. Waterworld

Also, another movie I really loved. Basically the polar caps melted and now humans live on water, no land in sight. Basically its like generation, and generations after they melt, so like people are used living on the water. In fact, people start to mutate to like fish-men. Stars some white guy (sorry not good with names). I had to look this up. Kevin Costner. Really enjoyed this movie though. I actually don't think there was any black people in this movie (guess we wouldn't surivive if the polar caps melted....hahaha...). I didn't think about that till now. Like I do watch movie without black people.


anywayz, that my movie rambling.
if you read all that, then you're amazing!!!
if you didn't, then you're probably not reading this right now.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!