Stereotypes

I guess this post is gonna get a little serious on ya. like for real.

Recently when discussing with my academic advisor about the prospect of me doing a  senior thesis,
she encouraged me to do it, ya know to broaden my experience, and just in general she wants me to do research, because she feels I'm "gifted" ( I mean I am, what can I say)
but one point she made that struck me was that I should do it because I'm a
black male. 

After conversing with her, and thinking about whether I wanted to do the senior thesis, it really hit me, why do I have to do something because I'm black?, like that's kinda not the way I operate in life. And it made me realize how sometimes, which mean alot, I forget that I'm  a black male, and that I kinda came against all odds and whatnot to be where I am. It's really mind blowing.

Ya know I don't see myself as a black male the way other people see black males. When I look in the mirror, I see a guy who happens to be black. But this doesn't mean I dont recognize or take pride in my blackness, because I very much do. You know I'm proud of the history of black people in America and of my culture. But I guess sometimes I kinda forget that fact that I'm different than the majority of Americans, my langauge is different, my beliefs are different, my culture is different.

I'm thinking about it more today because in my Teach Ed class, today we talking about identity, and that's something that I guess I always wondered about concerning race. Just because I identify myself as something doesn't mean other won't view me as the opposite. Because there's stereotypes that exist about people who look like me. And me exhibiting some of those stereotypes only reinforces what people think to be true, so how do I explain to someone all people like me don't act like that, without you know totally disassociating myself from the group as a whole. I know all of this is probably general, but I'm blurting out stuff.

but more and more, each day I'm realizing how special my situation is (and it's only by the grace of God, that I've been able to do things I have done, and such). Like many black males aren't in my situation of being in college, & basically my life and career plan. and thinking about how if I were my brothers age and having someone who's going through what I will eventually go through,  that would have been so inspiring, yet, I did it all without that role model, without someone to be the model for me. You know now I get it ( and by now i meant when I first thought of this). That me living my life is actually less about me, and more about the legacy and the model I leave behind.

And thinking about my career as a math teacher, I will be a representation for students,  especially black male students, that black males can do math. and again thinking about if I had a black male math teacher, at least one time in my schooling, what would that have done for me? but still then I made it without that teacher.

This brings up the question of  thats why I "forget" I'm black, have I assimilated so much in to the dominant culture, that I subconsciously am unaware of race in my situation. was this because no real black role models in education were present? I don't know.

This is the problem with identification of self, ya know do I identify myself with how other people view me, or should I go with what other view me as, since these stereotypes are going to forever exist. Or am I just an exception to the rule? I don't know.

But I do know I will forever be a black man.and I have to realize I'm different, I'm gonna be viewed as different, different things are going to be expected of me just because I'm a black male. and that will affect all aspects of my life. and it's something I gotta deal with.......FOREVER...
yeah............

*sorry I got really deep and typed so much, maybe you read it all, maybe ya didn't it really don't matter......this was more for me........even though there's no way to really answer any of this........*

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

Random-oscities (check, check, check it out)

song of the day: Keep On Praisin' by Fred Hammond

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SUPER bb updation

Eviction

Ronnie was evicted! (HAHAHA). And Jeff got the Coupe D'ete (yes.) things seem to be going my way..or more so the way I wanted them to go. Chima won HOH, which is bad for Russell cuz him and Chima got into a big argument (explosive) about he said, she said stuff (so stupid, but great entertainment).

I have to say this must be the season of "let's totally bash people on eviction night". First week I think Chima went at ol' dude. Banana suit guy went at Ronnie & Jessie. And now Ronnie attacked Michele, can't remember the exact quote, but he basically said she was like the worst person he ever met (whoa).


HOH Nominations.

Chima is HOH, and I said that was bad for Russell and it was. She nominated Russell and Lydia (Who's still trying to go after Jessie romantically(??) after he voted to evict her? stupid). But the thing about this if Russell doesn't get off the block, Jeff might use the Coup D'ete to put up Natalie or Jessie (which would be awesome), I think he's gonna use it no matter what (i kno I would).

Oh yeha, Chima revealed some crazy stuff, apparently like 10 years ago, she was raped (yes) by a serial killer. She was totally calm with talking about, which gave me like upmost respect for her. She also described how she fought back, and as a result had to get surgery on her face. so that crazy, but it's good she's getting her story out there.

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Layout

Once again, I'm thinking about changing my layout (and maybe even the title, address of this blog). i mean even create another one, don't know yet. But of course you'll know, if something changes. just a warning.

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I'm a Sagittarius

Okay so I don't believe in horscopes or tarot cards or anything like that.
But randomly one late night, Bored outta my mind, went to bored.com, found this Astrological Birth Report thingy. and suprsingly some things were true (and of course some weren't). but it was just interesting, how somethings can be spot dead on just based on my Date & time of birthday, & based on some astrological system.

For example, these are my "Traits":

Optimistic, Freedom-Loving, Jovial, Good-Humored, Honest, Straightforward, Intellectual and Philosophical

my "Dark Traits":

Blindly Optimistic, Careless, Irresponsible, Superficial, Tactless and Restless

i mean traits are just about dead on... dark traits not really sure.....but nevertheless....kool....

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Random Picture

(must be some terrible singing)

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that's all that I wrote
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!!

I Wonder how I would look as a White man?

With inspiration from Watermelon Man, I asked myself this question.
So what did I do? I googled it.
Well actually I googled "changing race in a picture", which took me to this blog (check out the funny pics of Lil' Wayne) , which then took me too this web site, The Face Transformer.

Using this old photo from about 2.5 years ago

(yeha don't look like this anymore but whatev...it's me)....

I wanted to see how I would look as a white person.....





& of course I tried out the other Transformations.

Older person

(Lord, please don't let me look like that...)

East Asian
As a woman
(sorta, the actual Transformation was Feminise)


As a Apeman (50% Chimp)
El Greco (??)

From these pictures, I most definitely think God knew what he was doing when he created me....kool pics though...

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Things that made me say..

WTF?!

1. MY DREAM
so i had this dream involving Tom Hanks
(why?! I don't know). anywayz Tom Hanks was secretly a woman and he(she) had a sex change to become Tom Hanks. Can't remember exactly what his (her) name was before the sex change....some how they came up with the name Tom Hanks ( i think it had something to do with country-ness like Tom is a country name idk). AND i was the only person who knew that Tom Hankswas born a woman...idk weird...

anywayz i wake up at like 10:15, turn to channel 7 to see what they are talking about on the view ( yes, I watch the View, i think it's because of Whoopi...i love Whoopi!) ..and Tom Hanks was on the show (it was like a re-run cuz he was promoting hismovie Angels and Demons). so I decided to watch it cuz i figured it had something to do with my dream. wasn't to sure what the connection was..it was funny cuz i was staring at Tom Hanks the whole time to see if I could see some feminine charateristics (inconclusive)....but there was this part on the show..where they were talking about Tom Hanks and this other guy on this one show where they were dressed up as women. here's a picture, don't think this was the exact image in my dream.
....idk....so my question is Does this make me psychic?

2. BET AWARDS
(still haven't got why there's a star there...someone explain)
was on last night for a ridicuolus amount of time (almsot four hours, damn awards shows). I wanted to watch it to see some of the tribute to Michael Jackson..some things could have been soo much better about the show...if they had more days of course......all i have to say is Don Cornelius (dude is old) should follow his own advice AND never be on television again....i literally turned the channel...it was nice to see the O'Jays perform though....that was kool...
i just have to say everytime I see Debra Lee (the head woman in charge of BET(whaa???)) think of the boondocks, depiction of her and BET so funny...hahaha...


3.Bernie Madoff...

so don't really now who this dude is...but apparently dude was sentenced to 150 years in prison for investment fraud (DAMN!!!). so dude is not gonna live that long...the judge was just making a point or something like that...i think his attorney(s) was trying for 12 years...like think about it.. 150 vs. 12....damn! i think though that he made some people like really really poor or something...i don't feel like reading about it...but i just heard about it on the news...crazy though to be sentence to 150 years for anything besides murder.....what's even more sadder-wer was that dude saw the victims and said sorry ( i guess after the fact)

...yeha WTF?!!
idk....
holla at cha boi!
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!