Been home [a little more than] a week.

And it's weird.
Because I have that feeling like I would over a spring/winter break......I'll get back to Evanston soon enough (which is still true in this instance) but it's gonna be in a total different way.

 I'll be living in actual place of my own (the search for that is still ongoing and actual quite stressful, how I would love to play over $1000 for a 1 bedroom, I don't know if it's really worth it, esp since I have loans to payoff.......Do I want to live in Evanston or Chicago?....I just don't know, because I've never done this before...so really unsure but I'll figure something out, I'll keep you updated)

But really I have that feeling like I'm tired of being in K3 and that I'll be heading back to Evanston soon to hangout with friends and get ready for classes, but that defintiely's not happening..
And really I do not like being home.
One, I feel like there's nothing to do/I don't want to do anything
Two, No one is here
Three, family is family, but annoying after awhile, esp parents, its like stop telling me what to do, I'm not a teenage anymore, they don't understand that though.

Only a month left though, I'm sure I'll miss K3, but really looking forward to things to come.
Like sometimes I forget that I already have a job, because I literally have nothing to do, but there are moments of enlightenment when I'm like 'wait I have my own classroom, and students, and getting actual money for it'. It's a really great feeling....

But in the meantime, I need to find stuff to do.
yeah.
Random PIcture time. 

that baby is so cute...and I would totally say the same thing/have the same facial expression if I was with Obama.

Random Factoid.

Did you know?A shrimp's heart is located in its head.


Another random picture (just cuz I felt like it)

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!

Rambling about Book (yes a book)

ETHS gave me this book that I actually read (and it made me want to read more, for reals)

basically it talks about how there's two mindsets that us humans live in. fixed mindset and the growth mindset. In terms of intelligence (and basically any other facet of human existence it seems), people with fixed mindset basically see themselves as really smart or stupid. Basically in this mindset, you avoid challenging things in fear of failure, and when you do fail, you view yourself as stupid. Basically you put in no effort because you are already smart. Success is measured by being smart and failure not. In the growth mindset, you basically recognize your deficiences and try to build those up. When you fail, you learn from them. Success is measured by learning, you fail when you don't learn anything. People with this mindset like challenging things because they grow from it.

I LOVE this book. Basically because it really affects your life because I think it challenges you to evaluate your own mindset, in different areas of your life. I think for most of my life I have been in the fixed mindset as far as intelligence, I smart, I'm good at math, I'm good at this or that. I thought all of these things were inherent, and they very may well be, but now I realized it was more because of the effort and the time I put with learning that allowed me to become smarter, or greater at this or that. 

I realized a turning point for me, when I made the transition from a less fixed mindset to a growth mindset in the area of mathematics was in last fall. I was taking this Probability course, and I'd never considered myself good at Probability, it was just always really difficult for me. And this definitely showed in the beginning of the course. I was not doing that well on quizzes and test. And I just didn't understand what was wrong, why couldn't I get it. Too the say the most I felt really really stupid, especially in this class everyone else was doing considerably well. Eventually putting in effort, reaching out to the Professor and TA's, working with other students in the class, I did start doing better in the course. And came out with a B, instead of C which I thought I was. I realized now I had to grow because I didn't know anything about Probability. And as I did better definitely my confidence in the course grew. It's all about your mindset. 

The great things is I think it can be applied to everything in life, especially the spiritual side. As a Christian, I think sometimes its hard to change your ways. You figure God made me this way, then this is what he want me to be, and that I can't get better. But it's all about your mindset, you have to take on this growth mindset, that I can be what God wants me to be, even though I may not be there now, but I'm getting there. So I think that's really great. This book often reminded of this scripture Romans 12: 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. You have to renew your mind, change your mindset, which is all the book is calling for you to do. 

But what I'm really excited about is how I'm going to implement this theory in my classroom. Because I definitely think specifically with mathematics, students will view it as something I inherently wrong with them that they can't do the mathematics. Or that they are really good at, so they don't need to do the problems, more so they don't want to because fear of failure. They will be stuck in the fixed mindset. And one of my upcoming goals, will be to change their mindset. I want to teach them that they can actually grow and learn mathematics. Nothing is hindering them but themselves. Euclid, and Pythagoras were humans just like you, they had a brain. All you have to do is work yours. So I recommend anyone whose everyone to just read this so they become knowledgeable of their mindset.  

I really think this book is life-changing. It's really how you define success I  think in the end. And with a growth mindset you can always be successful. 

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

Wow it's pretty much over....

College life.
I got Senior Week left now to celebrate with friends,  so that should be fun times.
But it hit me a couple of days ago while all the undergraduates were leaving...and I realized I was still here.
I'm a senior and this is the end....
and it really hit me today, as I was going through papers and stuff deciding what to keep, what to throw away, this is the end, man. I almost busted out crying a couple times, but I'm good...

I have SO many memories at this university, met so many people, done so many things, changed as a person a bizillion times, like I can't put in words how integral my college experience was to helping me learn about the world and myself, it is truly a amazing experience. I'm such a different and stronger person than I was a freshman coming in. It's crazy when I think back to my first times at NU, wow, things were different then...

But luckily, I have something to look forward to coming in the fall. I get to follow my passion. To be teacher, so that should be fun and challenging, to say the least. I just found out (for now) I'll be teaching 2 courses Geom H and 2 courses of Algebra 2 with a support class, a total of 5, so basically my student teaching classes, which should be fun[more than fun, but I don't really have the words to describe it]. I'm definitely excited for the chance to have my own class, my own students for an entire year (of course I'm scared, but more excited). Also I have orientation on Wednesday next week, called ETHS 101, so that should be really fun and get me uber-excited. I can't believe this either, like I'm literally gonna be high school math teacher. This is the time.

so many things happening in my life. This is definitely a closing of one chapter and the opening of another. I am truly blessed. Thank you God.
With this post, I just thought would take the time, while I have it, to step back and just look and reflect, but this upcoming week is senior week, so I'm surely gonna enjoy myself, enjoy my last times on this campus as a student with my friends...Then it's graduation.

oh speaking of which, I'm going to be the banner carrier for SESP at University Commencement. Pretty cool huh? I think so. I have to attend some meeting Tuesday next week, then at SESP rehearsal talk to the whole class about the commencement, seems pretty cool. And I proudly do it because I love SESP,  which definitely made my experience a great one as well.

so yeah. I'm just glad I made the choice to come to Northwestern, although I would've done somethings differently, not many, I have learned so much that I really wouldn't trade anything for those experiences.
AH. Let's go 'Cats.

Peace & CHICKEN GREASE!