wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

Blah.
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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

sooo... I ramble

hey what up world
just had a nice 30 mins+ walk to kemper.
i guess i like long walks (not necessilarly on the beach though)
but it was cool.

I how was just thinking how many times am I gonna get to do this before I graduate?
it brought me back to freshman year, when I would walk from PARC to Sargent all de time.
And I think about that person back then, and the person I am now.
And it's like wow so much as changed like since then
Like, who was I back then?
Where was I going? What was I doing? (idk)
But it's cool to be older, wiser, a lil' maturer (is that a word?)

any hoo longs walks are nice. 
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first week of classes.
it's weird being the student again. actually it's not weird. I totally hate it. urgh. Like I'm bored instantly. but my last classes should be interesting.

Math 104. Basically playing games all day e'reday. But so much work.
Philosophy of Ed. Gonna get on my nerves. like my last one. But this one I HAVE to take.
Reading in Content Area. Hoping to learn some strategies to teach literacy in classroom, probably most practical one. AND I DON't even have to take it.

Besides that I'm chillin. I'm game for doing anything and everything, BUT school work....
Random thought: I need to really be working on my DP (digital portfolio) right now instead of typing this.

Another random thought: Today's April Fools Day. Yeah.
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Real life is scary. I don't wanna grow up. I wanna stay home and bake cookies with my mama. And be a Toys r us kids. And wear pigtails. And eat ice cream. uhhhh.
But such is the time. So I have nothing but to be ready. So I say here it goes....
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Speaking of real life, I  had a job interview at ETHS on Wednesday.
Things went well. It would be nice if I get it. Don't find out until 2-3 weeks from now.
So there it goes.
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Is you okay? Is you? Good, cuz I want to know!
-GloZell
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Random Picture?
Sure.

(can't see it? click here)
This is why you don't go to McRonald's. Then you can see stuff like this....

That's it
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

First Day without a laptop

= Success?
I don't know, but it DOES equal me spending plenty of time in the MAC computer lab in the basement of the NU library.

So my computer's ackin stupid, well basically its not working, which is a problem, funny thing is.. it was working fine ( i guess) then like two hours later, completly not working (<--so descriptive). That's technology, gosh darn it!.
It basically comes on, well at least the lights, and then it turns off, and comes on again, each time it seems to be working harder to turn itself on. And that whole time nothing comes on the screen.

I thought I would freak out alot more than did, because I knew inevitably this would happen. i mean it like happens to everyone's computer. But there was a peace of sort,you know. I just automically knew I have to go to the library for everything or borrow someone else's laptop. I guess I've come to the sad realization there is not almost constant Facebook/Email/Blog checking. Which makes me think God is trying to tell me something, what? I don't know. but yeah.

The only real thing I was upset about was that I don't/didn't have access to my NCE stuff, i.e. the flyers I am working on for the concert. Hence I spent a majority of my day redoing the flyers. They're totally different, to some degree, than my original concept, but It's all good. I Like them (smiley face).

I guess there's some good to come out of this.
I'm shocked that I am about to type these words,
but I think the next time, probably within the next two years, when I buy myself another laptop
it will probably be a mac. (ouch, the apple has gone threw the window..think about it).
Maybe it cuz I spent the whole day in "MAC land" or maybe it because I actually understand how to use one more now. And maybe because somethings are easier, definitely not everything though.  but yeah I might.

wow, I typed a lot.
well not that much
Anywayz have a great day/week/month
until the next time I update,
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

Not sure what update about.......

cuz of course I haven't been up to much.....
But I really wanted to update sooooo.....
here ya go, i guess....

BB UPDATE
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So this episode of BB was so much better than the previous 2. People are really starting to play the game, which I still think its too early, unless you're on the chopping block. But hey whatever. I loved this episode because there was drama, that's basically the only reason I watch it. Like people were arguing and its only the first week (CRAZINESS!). Also one dude, I believe his name is Ronnie, almost got caught up in a lie. And that was pretty good. well, he did get caught but the other dude just didn't say it. All this like happened in the last half of the episode (HOW LAME!).

Also, I've come to the conclusion (w/ the help of Wikipedia), that there is 2 (3?!) black people in the house. Chima (1), Kevin (1/2 black and 1/2 japanese), Russell (1/2 black and I guess 1/2 white). If you had up halves and such you get 2, but should each person be counted as black or mixed or whanot?? (idk). But that's kool I guess. But still there's hardly ever any obvious black males on the show. Kool season so far, though.

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what else can I update about?!!
hmmmmmmm.....

--Michael Jackon ( too sick of all the drama surronding it)

--Burr Oak Cemetery (Madness, straight buffoonary to the 12th degree, but no)

--Sarah Palin resigning (Who cares? I don't)

--Harry Potter (Nope, never been interested really.....yeha)

i just don't know. I really don't. This is pitiful.
Well that could only mean one thing (what?!)
It's........ (peanut butter jelly time?!)
Random Picture Time (booo!)
well it's all I got (lame, lame-0)
whatever, here ya go

found this at Explain this image .com (see it in the corner)....anywayz tons of photo that are unexplainable. I have to subscribe to this.
Aight that's it....
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Random Tidbits

I'm really liking this "Random Tidbits", it's like I can update about things totally unrelated. Amazing!

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Big brother first episode

so BB is still my current obsession. But I really didn't enjoy the first episode, I think it's because it just started out. I was just expected something more. I guess, but anywayz one of the people I hated from last season is back on the show: Jessie.

(can't believe I just posted a pic of him on my blog...uhh)

He's this body-builder, conceited person...i hate people like that....he just thinks he's the shit when he ain't shit. like really, and this person is back on the show.....at least he'll bring good drama.... i guess.
But ummm oh the new thing this season is everyone is split into high school cliques: Brains, Athletes, Popular, and Offbeats. What clique do I belong in Brains, Popular, or Offbeat (most def not Athletic)?? idk. I think I'm most def closer to Brains. yeha. oh and if someone in the clique gets HOH (head of household) then everyone in the clique is safe. So that def changes the game.

***updation: Tonight's episode was alot better. Got to know some people a little more. And a little drama ensued. Not much, but you know I'm excited. So yeha we'll see what happens. Two People have been nominated...Tuesday's show is going be about Power of Veto competition. sooo yeha...

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My Video in the Making.

So I've been working on a video that is a combination of random videos I have taken with my HP Webcam. I'm gonna put it on youtube and of course on here, one of these days. It'll be my production of the summer.... i guess.....

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Life update

Life, has been the same for quite a while. Doesn't look like I'm getting a job. But I think that's okay. I've been kinda doing the same thing e'erday but not really. I don't know. There's not much going's on. But if there was...this "Life update" would be more updational....

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Dance your ass off.

So there's this new dance show on the Oxygen network called dance your ass off. Basically it's helping fat (overweight?, obese?) people get into shape, with dancing, AND working out, and changing their eating habits and such.

It sound likes a really good idea. I find it mildly entertaining. It'll be good to see some changes eventually. OH, what I really wanted to say is that they've been having them wear some bogus out-fits, gee and they be thinking they be sexy...but it just be nasty. I mean till you lose some weight I think you should cover that up (but that's just me...)..

(This is okay)



(this is not)

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Dairy Queen

(none of these are snickers blizzard, but they all look good :) )

I had some last night. OMG! SO GOOD!. Def can't remember the last time I had some. I had my regular: Snickers' Blizzard. SO GOOD! Had to update about this even though its just food.
I'm such a fat kid!

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The Color Purple- the Musical

Is coming to Chicago from Sept 2 -13. Totally want to go, WAIT I will go (if I say I'm going to do something then I more likely going to do it). Fantasia going to be in it. And I hated myself for not going to see it when it was here before, so it'll be pretty awesome to see. Not realy sure why I updated about this. I think I just wanted to remind myself...whatev....I'm going.

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KOOL!

anywayz
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Tidbits about my life....

Tuesday the 7th was my mom's B-day
(she's the BIG arobaini, I won't put all her business out like that)...but anywayz...
I went with my mom to Bingo on Tuesday.
It was pretty fun, 'cept there was a whole bunch of ol' (can I say white? yes I can it. it's my blog) white people there. It's like that all time though (well, I have only been there once before) but yeah....

(funny it's an old white man! hahaha)

It was pretty kool, it's basically like gambling, no it is gambling....but it's not that expensive I guess...I did win one game and I won $60!!! ( I would've had $120 but this lady bingo-ed with me...uhhh)

AND I was about to win $500 on the jackpot round, which was a coverall, had to cover you whole board to win Bingo. I had one number left, 59, (damn 59!) and the announcer guy (who was also old, white, and like basically deaf) said 50 (and I was like 9, right?) NO! just 50...and somebody else BINGO-ed.........bull right?! uhhhh....but anywayz it was funn...

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This is really not news, but My mom made some PEACH COBBLER
(oh how I love you peach cobbler, i could make a song about you)

....it was really good.........really really good....I mean you don't have Peach Cobbler e'erday. So when you do it's like head-lining news (shiiitt)....

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So for like the past 3 months and 1/2 I have been debating whether to buy the Sims 3.

You know I really wanted to buy it, but then it cost $50, and to me that alot for a GAME, especially one I never played before....

but anywayz on Monday I was totally going buy it, (I was seriously like I'm going to buy tomorrow). Go to the website....I'm like I should check to make sure it fits the requirements cuz I saw somebody's facebook status talking about how they bought it, but then it didn't work on their computer....so I looked...and my laptop processor is like too slow. I think I need a 2.4 and my computer's is only a 1.8 (what these numbers stand for I can't remember neither do I really care).


...but I was really upset I couldn't buy it.....so looks like I'll never play it....(well Never say never i guess..i'll seee)

Aight that's it!
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!