wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

Blah.
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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Youtube Mania (Long time no see)

Yeah it's back.

1. Oh nana vut is my name? 

 

Two words: A mess.   

Reasons

The glasses 

The hand movements  

Not really knowing the words

She lucky this ain't my jam no mo'. 
*Thanks Khiayah*

2. 2 cute twin babies communicating/conversing/talking in baby language 

 

Umm. Cute! I really wonder what they are talkin' bout. Makes me wish I had some baby translatin' device. Like this could be like talking bout the cure for cancer. But it's probably got something to do with the one on the right missing a sock. Just my ed-jamacated guess.

 

 

3. OVEREXPOSED: REBECCA BLACK

 

I'm sure you know who 'BeccaBlack. and the horribleness that is that FriesDay song of hers. But here's Kinsley giving what I think bestly represent how I felt right after seeing the video for the first time. Enjoy :).  

 

 

4. Jennifer Hudson - Where You At

Love this song. And the video is pretty nice. JHud's representing the Chi nicely. Her voice is amazing. FYI, This song was written by R.Kelly, AND then everything made sense. 

Stop slanging, find a real job a go to work!

 

That's it for now. 

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

A Day at a Dentist

Today, I went to the dentist for a check up, I hadn't been in over a year,
cuz of school and stuff. (as a result I now have 3 cavities and my teeth hurt like crap, stupid dentist!)

anywayz
strangely, people just talking to me that I don't even know.
(and yes they were white, my mom says it's because barack OBAMA is president..but idunno..)

they just made me wanna say: "B!%^#, I don't know your life!"
(Total inside joke: check out clip here)

the first person, a woman, was talking on her phone all loud and stuff (i ain't wanna hear that),
and then she got off and was like "I don't like when people talk on their cellphones all loud..blah blah blah.. sorry..yada yada"
"B!%^#, I don't know your life!"



and then when she was leaving she was like "I like the stitching on your pants" ( I was wearing my pants
with pants on them, which I always get complements/comments on....i mean everytime I wear them). I am just like why are you talking to me lady, I really don't care if  you like my pants.

and then this old man (who was apparently over 70, he definitely didn't look like it) was having his teeth pulled.  he just talking to me about how people don't like to come to the denstist, and the weather, and how much I should take care of my teeth, and blah blah blah. and I just wanted to be like "I Don't know you! why r you talking to me!!! B!%^#, I don't know your life!"

and then I finally get to the dentist chair, and the hygentist lady hurt the mess outta my teeth. and she just talking to me  ( getting all up in my business..). and I'm like "We can't have conversation if you sticking stuff in my mouth and stuff" (that sounds nasty...hahaha)

I don't know if anybody got an answer to this but why these people was talking to me? Was they just being nice, and why??? Why they had to be so interested in telling me they business...cuz I really didn't care
I mean, I don't know them at all! I think it was just annoying to me cuz I was up so early (10 am) and didn't want to be bothered.

some other interesting things from today dentist visit:
my dentist actually went to the Dental school at NU before they closed it.
and the other guy dentist actually went to undegrad at NU so that was really kool.
Northwestern's all around...so awesome...

yeah interesting day at the dentist.
maybe I should go more often.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!