wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

Blah.
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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Yeah, it's May.

Wow. It just kinda hit me while I was typing this. Pretty soon I will have only 30 days left in my college experience. Wow, I can't believe it.

So much is going to happen in that time........ But classes will be over then. so I'll be considerably happy. I don't want to talk about school or I'll get depressed, angry, stressed or crazy
So I'm just gonna talk about some random stuff. Enjoys.

1. I'm enjoy myself, chillin for the most part. Procrastinating is what some folks would call it. But it is, what it is. And if that's what it is than that's what it is.......idk.

2. Basically, I miss teaching. I realized this on Tuesday. P360 had a student visit, its was kids from Waukegan. And I had like a group of 9 students, and we just showed them around the campus, had lunch with them and stuff. It was really fun, the kids were awesome. And I really got them excited about college, so I hope that their visit really got them thinking about college. And basically I just realized how much I missed teaching, that's the reason I want to be a teacher to inspire the students, make them know they can do anything they want to. so basically I'm excited about the upcoming school year. so glad I gots employment. :-)

3. I need to find a place to live though. I definitely want to stay in Evanston/Chicago for the summer, because Kankakee might get on my nerves considerably. but I need to figure that out soon......urgh.

4. TUMBLR is awesome. I'm pretty much addicted. Past addiction to say the least. It's basically my new facebook. It's awesome, I get to track post on bacon, education, math, technology, and trumpet. It's like I can incorporate all my interest into one place. This is last time I'm posting the link. So click if you'd like. http://imtheasauce.tumblr.com

5. Oh, Bin Laden is dead. Kool, thanks Obama and all the troops. I'm still afraid about any retaliation efforts from his people's, I'm praying that nothing bad happens though. But I think it's really good that people who lost loved ones from 9/11 now feel some sense justice has been served. That's good.

6. Just finished watching Black Dynamite.

 I loved it. Stars Michael Jai White, guy who played Tasha's husband on TP's Why did I get married?. Pretty funny, and just generally interesting, makes fun/pays homage to blaxploitation films of the 70s. I loved it (Did I say that already?). I basically thought this story was gonna end like 3 times before it actually did, it's just pretty ridiculous. But that's why I loved it. So if you haven't seen it. Watch it.

Oh kay that's it.....
Yes.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

It's official

I hate school.
I hate assignments.
I hate homework.
I hate reading.
I hate doing math problems.
I hate discussion.
I hate lectures.

Basically I hate classes. 
All I want to do is lay in bed all day, pick my nose, eat a jar of pickles, laugh, fart, and sneeze. And still get A's and graduate. That's all.

But unfortunately such is my life now. Back to being a student. It's a harsh reality. Luckily only 8 more weeks of this crap. Then I becomes an adult, which is scary but it'll be pretty exciting and adventuresome to say the leastest.

Um what else did I want to update about.....
Peanut Butter and jelly sandwiches? 

Turtles?

Swiffers? 

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I mean nothing really interesting is happening. Dang my life's so uneventful now. I need to change this.
while I figure that out, watch this video.



This is video of my vlog, which never quite took off and will never probably again. But really this is hilarious to me still this very day....I am a mess.

so I'mma got do something with my life....
much love
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Simply Updating

nothing special.

3 years 
junior year coming to a close. 3 classes down, 1 more to go and its the 'important' one (i suppose), math,
i actually feel i should actually start studying now, math hasn't been so great this quarter. but we'll see.
i think its gonna be weird though being a senior, I kinda feel like I just got here, well I mean I can remember my first visit to this campus, and all the nervousness & anticipation I felt because I was finally going to college. and i guess it's just now hitting me there's only one year left and like everyone will be looking to me as the example and a leader......yeah, but I'm so GLAD this quarter is almost over, and  I made it through (THANK GOD)...

This summer
Breakthrough in Colorado is official. I booked my flight the other day ($300+, omg!). But I'm excited for this opportunity, and I'm looking for an active and stressful summer, which is totally opposite of every other summer of my life, seriously. Yeah, I'm kinda nervous about finally teaching cuz I don't know what to expect, but I know whether good or bad, it'll be a great experience. And I'll be helping the childrens which is good always.

GFest
Just came from the Gospel Fest 2010. It was kool. I saw 'lil bit of Kathy Taylor. All of Byron Cage and Hezekiah Walker. It was pretty kool. I personally felt though their sets weren't long enough. It just felt like they did five songs and were done, but hey can't really complain it's free, well i suppose it comes from taxes. I'm going again tomorrow, Richard Smallwood & Fred Hammond will be, it should be awesome.

Homesick
Other than that things going pretty well. I really want to go home soon, I haven't seem my family in over 2 months! and I just miss them extremely, even though I guess it doesn't seem like since I never really go home. I guess though I gotta kind of get used to not seeing them, I mean I'll be starting my career pretty soon & there's no telling where I'll be teaching...

speaking of which,
Career Backup Plans
1. my elaborate plan to move to the U.K. for 10yrs gain a British accent, come back to the states open up a bar and D.J.
2. CTA bus/train driver
3. Backup Dancer
4. Run for Vice President w/ Kira (La)Frank for Prez.

most of these r jokes, but I guess I should seriously be thinking about a backup plan just in case teaching doesn't work out (for some strange reason), but I really don't know what else I would do.

okay I'm gonna end here
or I'll continue for ever probably..

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

Woke up this morning

feeling like P.diddy
no i don't like ol girl with dollar sign in her name......

but i actually I woke up this morning,
and my first thought,
I quit [school].
I really freakin hate school, despise classes and  its evil step-daughter work.
If school was a person I would literally stab it in the heart a million times, watch it die slowly......
and then laugh hysterically ......yes.....

that's how much I hate it. I'm just so tired of assignments and this due, that due, and all this crappy
de crap crap.

but I definitely can't quit now . I come to far from where I started from (haha). My ancestors put... [insert inspiring story about black people and slavery here].....

but other than classes...
I'm doing alright.......feels like i gotta alot on my plate, but i already ate 2 plates of food, and I'm full as hell.....

there's alot future plans I need to get together soon, including Housing for next year, and Breakthrough coming up in the summer, and just other things in general about my last year of college (ya serious?! I just got here), and what the crap Ima do with my life...
urgh....

an-tee-wayz
that's about it......i gotta get the grind.....

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

hello AGAIN world

this is ya biz-oy.
so um.
still at NU, final weeks, it's fun! 'cept its not.
I kinda I have a lot to update about. but um
I really don't feel like talking about alot stuff.
oh wait i do...
I currently have that teach ed paper done.
and i basically finished my music tech project, gotta polish it up a lil bit
what's left is I just have to write my comp lit paper, which technically has not page limit.
I'm shoot for no more than 3 pages, doubled space.
and then I just gotta study for my math final.
so it turns out things are not as bad as I thought they would be
(Thank God)

but really I just can't wait to get home.....cuz I feel like I haven't seen my familia y parentals/ hung out with them in forever.
yeah...

oh GOOD NEWS, GOOD NEWS!!!!
this summer I will be going to Denver Colorado, for Breakthrough Collaborative!!.
It's gonna be so awesome. I found out last week Tuesday!
Basically I'm just gonna be teaching for 2 months straight (from June 15 to August 12)...
it should be fun, and exhausting, but I'm really excited to go.
Hopefully I'll be teaching math, I'll find out about all  that in April.

yeah other than that...
wait.....
okay so for my african literature class (i referenced it as comp_ lit above), we have to watch 1 out of five movie for our final paper. I watched Keita: the heritage of a griot. It's an excellent movie (although it's in french strangely). I don't really want explain the movie cuz its crazy!! but um it just got me thinking about my heritage and we I come from. And i was just thinking how awesome it would be to find out exactly where I came from, who owed my ancestors, when did they arrive in americas, what country they came from and even what were some of their cultural practices. I just think that would be awesome.but it's like really difficult to find that stuff actually. But I just might have to a talk with my grandma over break...

okay that's it...
I have something to do....probably not actually...
but anywayz
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!

So I've Come to the Realization...

That this school year is gonna be fun, but quite crazy.

I have tons of things to do, in a limited amount of time (imposible?, maybe). Mainly I have big commitments to 3 organizations (and I want to do more).

but I'm up for the challenge. I mean I rather be doing something than doing absolutely nothing at this point (cuz I did nothing all summer).

but like I was saying...this year is gonna be pretty fun, I'm staying with friends & basically I just plan to enjoy myself tons. But it's gonna be crazy cause I'm gonna be doing so much. but that's my goal. Basically when I graduate I want to look back and see that I had tons of fun, but that I also did things to further the community (whatever that means)...but yeha.....

wow sometimes I can get extra-serious...and it scares the living day-lites outta me (who comes up with this expressions anywayz....??) um yeha that's it...

oh about the poll....kool ness...2 people voted........
I'll continue the Youtube Mania's as much as I can though......so..............yeah...

random picture time! (i haven't done this in a long time..)

if you see it  when you first look at it.. then you are amazing. it took me about 5 mins to find it.....

hahahahaha

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!