wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

Blah.
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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Yeah, it's May.

Wow. It just kinda hit me while I was typing this. Pretty soon I will have only 30 days left in my college experience. Wow, I can't believe it.

So much is going to happen in that time........ But classes will be over then. so I'll be considerably happy. I don't want to talk about school or I'll get depressed, angry, stressed or crazy
So I'm just gonna talk about some random stuff. Enjoys.

1. I'm enjoy myself, chillin for the most part. Procrastinating is what some folks would call it. But it is, what it is. And if that's what it is than that's what it is.......idk.

2. Basically, I miss teaching. I realized this on Tuesday. P360 had a student visit, its was kids from Waukegan. And I had like a group of 9 students, and we just showed them around the campus, had lunch with them and stuff. It was really fun, the kids were awesome. And I really got them excited about college, so I hope that their visit really got them thinking about college. And basically I just realized how much I missed teaching, that's the reason I want to be a teacher to inspire the students, make them know they can do anything they want to. so basically I'm excited about the upcoming school year. so glad I gots employment. :-)

3. I need to find a place to live though. I definitely want to stay in Evanston/Chicago for the summer, because Kankakee might get on my nerves considerably. but I need to figure that out soon......urgh.

4. TUMBLR is awesome. I'm pretty much addicted. Past addiction to say the least. It's basically my new facebook. It's awesome, I get to track post on bacon, education, math, technology, and trumpet. It's like I can incorporate all my interest into one place. This is last time I'm posting the link. So click if you'd like. http://imtheasauce.tumblr.com

5. Oh, Bin Laden is dead. Kool, thanks Obama and all the troops. I'm still afraid about any retaliation efforts from his people's, I'm praying that nothing bad happens though. But I think it's really good that people who lost loved ones from 9/11 now feel some sense justice has been served. That's good.

6. Just finished watching Black Dynamite.

 I loved it. Stars Michael Jai White, guy who played Tasha's husband on TP's Why did I get married?. Pretty funny, and just generally interesting, makes fun/pays homage to blaxploitation films of the 70s. I loved it (Did I say that already?). I basically thought this story was gonna end like 3 times before it actually did, it's just pretty ridiculous. But that's why I loved it. So if you haven't seen it. Watch it.

Oh kay that's it.....
Yes.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

I'm back!!!

Hey world,
student teaching is finally over!.  I have resurfaced from the depths of lesson planning, grading, and waking up early to return to the familiar life of  a college student. This Spring Quarter it's on.

but so much as happened in the world since my last post (Jan 18).. I mean  the Grammy's , Japan and the Earthquake, Rebecca Black,just to name a few, but it should be pretty nice not having to be so stressed out all the time because I got so much to do.

i'm just glad i stayed all the way through it. so many times I wanted to give up. i mean there was really bad days, were things didn't go so well or I was just feeling like crap. but there was also really good days that let me know teaching is where I belong, I can inspire the youth and make a difference in their life. so it's really cool. I think all the stress is worth it in the end. It really made me stronger person, I feel like I can do anything now, pretty much.

i mean i could go on & on about student teaching, but I don't feel like doing that here. soooo
I'm looking forward. to my last quarter as a academic student (at least for sometime). my schedule's pretty light, i will be meeting a total of 6 times a week. so classes won't be hard. I'll prolly be working at norris alot, but that's cool too.

I'm trying to have as much fun as I can this quarter. do everything and anything basically. whatever that means...i'll let you figure that out.....

man, I've missed this blog. altho I think I might get  a tumblr. which'll prolly make usage on this go down. but whatever. of course I'll post a link there when I start one up....

well that's all for now.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!

Student Teaching and stuff

I just realized this is my first post of the new year.
I'm a lil bit late.
so HAPPY NEW YEAR.

2011 has been off to a great start. I've begun my student teaching at ETHS, and I'm really loving it.
There's so much I can talk about my student teaching so far, even though it's only the 3rd week (7 to go). One thing I love it that I'm finally doing what I've been wanting to do for so long: TEACH. Like last week, after talking with my mentor teacher about how I did in the morning. I just felt really happy. This was possibly the happiest I've been in awhile. All because I'm doing what I wanna do with my life, and not taking STUPID classes. Unfortunately I'll be back to 'college life' come spring quarter, but I'm deciding not to think about that or I'll get all depressed and stuff.

Otherwise I'm really enjoying it. The kids are great and hilarious. For instance, I've seen a girl pull a pass outta of  her bra, and a  kid chew on a wad of paper. There should be more hilarious things to come. Stay tuned. The students are really cool. I'm teaching a Geom H class, all freshman, mostly white, and 3 Algebra 2 Regular class, culturally mixed . and it's been interesting seeing the differences. Honors kids are a lot more self-motivated. Like you give them a problem and they immediately start working on it. Whereas in the other classes you definitely have to nudge them along, sometimes ya gotta do a little more than nudge. But it's an experience nevertheless. I'm enjoy the challenge. I think this is one of the main differences between regular and honors. I don't think it has anything to do with intellect but more so motivation, like who cares more about learning it seems. Not to say that regular students don't care it just seems from my experience they just don't want to anything, and this could stem from plenty of things I'm sure, especially in relations to mathematics. But anyhoo it'll be interestin seeing the difference between the classes, over the quarter.

I haven't taken over any classes yet. That comes in about 2 weeks, after the students are done with finals, ya see ETHS is on the weird system, but it works out okay for me I suppose. It's gonna be really interesting teaching though 5 classes alone because I'm currently co-teaching 4 of them, which is really great, because I can interact with the students get to know them, and instruct them as well. But it'll be interesting having that full load of classes, and having to do so much preparation, like I already know Ima be dead tired. Literally, there's like so much left to this quarter it redunkulous. But I'll get through it and be fine.

Also my mentor teachers are really great. Peter's awesome, even though he's a little reluctant about letting his class into my hands because I'm probably gonna mess them up and confuse them. But there's nothing I can really do but my best, and it's not gonna be perfect and I'm okay with that for now. Maryjoy though is also awesome, she reminds me alot of myself and we get along pretty well. She just had a baby in October so she's really more focused on him (his name is Theo, I'll get to see him Wednesday next we hopefully!) than on school when she's not at school. Which to me, is totally understandable, it just might make some things kinda of difficult to do. But as usual I'll be okay, I'm a big boy. Ummmm yeah I love my mentors, they have been so awesome.

so basically, Monday through Friday
I wake up a 6am outta the door by 640,645 because i take my shower the night before. take the cta purple line from noyes to davis.this involves me waiting usually like 5 mins which sometimes might look like this.

 i then take 93 bus from davis to the school (it literally drops me off right in front of the school) then I'm at the school until about 430, 5. so it's pretty long days. Basically I'm working, without getting paid. Actually I'm paying someone else to work. It's really great. But the experience I'm  is priceless gaining in my mind.

But as I've said like a million times by now I really love my student teaching experience so far. Mainly cuz I'm doing my thug thiz.

Okay so I honestly don't know how much I will updates bout student teaching or general life problems or randomocity, prolly not much, but you'll be alright. I know.
Yes this is it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Read's to go...

read: red-s tah go (as in "ready to go")

Been home for sometime, almost 2 weeks, and I'm ready to head back to good ol' e-town.
It's been nice being home and all, seeing the fam, and the familarity, but I'm SO Bored.
Nothing here changes. On the surface things change, like the furniture and the fact that there's kool-aid back in the house, but it still the same folks and same interactions. Nothing has changed. which I guess is a good thing, ya know with stability and such, but at this point in my life, I've had enough of the same ol' same ol'.

or maybe it had something with me not going home doing spring quarter at NU, then coming home for like 4 days, heading off to denver, basically living by myself out there for 2 months, then heading back to Illinois, i guess where I now have to rely on people, where in denver and at NU, i'm depending on myself mostly. Which I can say I enjoy, i like the freedom the independence.

which is why I'm looking  forward to senior year so much. So much happening!
the Big Thing: Student Teaching, WHEW! as I said I'll be at ETHS, which I thinks gonna be really awesome, my mentor teachers already seem pretty awesome, although we've only communicated by email.

Next thing(s): NUMB and NCE, it's my last year with these organization and I'm really excited about both. NUMB, will have 23 trumpets this year! So excited about this. This means maybe like 8 per part, where as the past three years we had only 5 per part. Major Development! And in NCE i'll be Treasurer, even though this will be hectic position, I'm excited about it and the upcoming 40th anniversary, it's gonna be pretty awesomeness.

But with both of these organization, I'm a senior, so people are defintiely gonna be looking up to me, asking questions about stuff,  I just think it's pretty kool to finally be back at the top of the experience chain again. And plus I get to the things seniors do, ya know. Ahhh it's gonna be amazing year!

Next things: Promote 360 and Work. Unfortnately these two things fall last for me, even I love P360 so much, and I love the things we are able to do within SESP, and work I mean that's money. But I have to fit these in somewhere most def this quarter as well.

And including classes, that's a total of 6 things I'm juggling this quarter. So I think it's gonna be pretty crazy. But my guess is it's not gonna be as bad as I'd imagine. I mean one thing I learned this summer about myself I always expect the worst thing possible, but then nothing is ever that bad. As with BT, I had no idea what to expect, but I just imagine stuff being really crazy and me feeling all loner-ish and stuff, which in fact it wasn't that bad. I can say there was only a couple of times I felt really alone, but those were really random times.

Anywayz I'm looking so forward to senior year. I'm excited to be done, and I'm so glad God has brought me this far, like when I think back to freshman year, it's just amazing I made it this far. And I'm not through. More to come.


PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!