wow it's almost august.

i wanted to write this emotionally filled post about how I am truly terrified about having my own classroom. And TRULY being the one in charge. Like for student teaching it was different because ultimately really what went one was my mentor's decision. But I just don't know what I want to do or I guess what is 'right' for me to do. I guess I just don't like this idea of being a novice teacher. I want to be an experience, talented teacher already...I think it's just that I hate failing, but that's the only way I'm gonna grow soo...

And on top of that I'm moving to Evanston, and I'm gonna be completely on my own. I guess it's just a big step, and I didn't think it would feel as big as it does. I mean I went to college for 4 years, pretty much away from home the whole time, I just thought it would be easier than it feels. but it's not. Being at home for like 2 months makes me miss that security even more, that support. And I know my parent's will still be supporting me, but in a different way (financially not as much, which I guess don't wanna really worry about and I prolly won't, until I see all those bills). And each day that gets closer to my move-in day, it hints me slightly more that these big steps are approaching.

and I mean, I miss college already, I can't really believe it's over. And it's not helping that I'm moving back to the place where I went to school. I knew this would happen. Of course graduation day I was really happy I was done. But now I realize, I met some amazing  people, had some amazing experiences, and I'm done with that, moving on this next step of teaching, and totally different life.

But although I'm truly scared of being a teacher, moving on my own, and missing college, I know in the end I'll be alright. And in about two months I'll be so busy, everything will be routine, and I'll have some amazing experiences that I'll be truly happy that I am where I am.......But until then I guess I just need to pray and focus my energies elsewhere........

Was that emotional enough????

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Random.
This week was VBS at my church. Realized I'm so glad I'm teaching high schoolers. those 6,7,8 year olds. Nu-uh.Could not be me. I would slap one of those kids....for reals.
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Announcement of sorts
Having a Graduation/Going Away/Housewarming celebration. More so my mom is. I don't really care about the celebration I just want gifts/money............should be fun though. I have to do a 'powerpoint' but I think my mom meant slideshow. well at least that's what I plan on doing...hahaha I'm so lazy.

also this is my 299th post........it's taken me forever to get to this 300. next post is gonna be grand slash i'm totally lying because I don't even know when the next time I'm gonna post....and who says grand anymore? dang cuh...

here's a random picture of me after I graduated from Kindergarten.......

I wonder if I still have this certificate, my mom prolly does........hahaha.
alright that's it.

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE

Who actually needs a title? just read...

BB Updation

so ol girl, umm Laura , from the Popular clique went home. Ironically I thought she would be the most likely to win (see how wrong I was), but this was before the first episode. cuuz there was vids of all the cast online, and I watched them. She just seemed the most determined, and was like she came to win soo I thought she would. But she went home mainly becasue she ran her mouth too much, she was talking smack about the HOH, Ronnie, not such a good thing. So she went home, NOT Russell. I think that may come to bite back Ronnie in the butt, actually I think he might be going home next week but who knows, crazy big brother.

Yeha, he might not go home, because Jessie is HOH (again, ughhhh)..and they're supposed to be in a alliance, but who knows well see. Most def on Tuesday.

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VBS Updation

Last day was on Friday, it was an okay program, not as many children came back that was there doing the week. That seems to happen every year, but what can you do?. ummmm it was good though. I'm definitely glad it's over, cuz it was kinda stressful, but not THAT stressful. It was also TIRING. but now I don't have nothing (ooo double negative) to do per say...but I'll figure that out. I'm thinking about joining the choir thing for a musical at my church, but I don't know if I want to...we'll see....but for VBS that's it....

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Eagle Eye

Saw this movie today, one word: CRAZINESS!!. Omg! This movie was ridiculous in the beginning, got kinda boring, predictable towards the end. I won't reveal to much of it. but Shia LaBaeof and this other lady (Michelle Monaghan...???) are seen as terrortists, and are basically running for their lives. Basically it's a set up. But by who? Pretty good movie, got and kept my attention.


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Black In America: Part 2.

Watched the first part of this. and I guess it was better than the last one, can't remember what "Part 1" was like. But you know there was def a theme this time: Tommorrow Leaders. Basically showed people who are preparing and those becoming those Leaders. There was a small shout-out ,if you will, to NU. One of the people from the show who was of main focus, is (went?) to Kellogg, so that was really kool to see. I think it also gave a more diverse specturm of what it means to be black in America than what I remember from the first one. pretty kool, I guess.

They're supposed to be doing a Latino in America also....interesting.....my question is should they do a White in America? Or do we all already know that story!

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NU Football Season

Just wanted to say I am so excited for the upcoming football season at NU! (for the 70th time). triggered by a football game. the Big Ten Network showed the game '08 against Illinois (our rivarly, and interestingly the nearest Big Ten School to my house). We won this game. and It just got me so excited to watch the game and see our football team winning (all that purple), and also to faintly hear the band in the background....it's just way to amazing. I saw a clip of the band once, like 2 second clip of the band, and I went crazy!

Here's highlights of the game, awesome!



Just mucho excited! AHHHH!
GO 'CATS!!!

Random Tidbits and such...

"The Invisible Man"

Pics from Damn Cool Pics. Check out the original post here. Totally amazing how good some of these are.
This is kool cuz I was totally thinking about this a couple of days ago. Like how hard would it be to have something that'll make you invisible. Like each and every one of your particles will have to be unseen by human eye, would you have to genetically change stuff?...idk how that would work?
(Reason for this thought: I think my brother was watching that Muppets in Space movie, and there's this part where the muppets become invisible, and it got me thinking about it. ) anywayz check out the pics.

(there's more, but you should check out the post, cuz I didn't want to post them all)

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VBS Updation

Today was pretty much the last day of VBS, the last day of teaching. Tommorrow, Friday, every class does a presentation, and that's about it. It was pretty good today. I was actually getting really used to it. I can say I really enjoyed myself this week. I was expecting it to be very hard, and just tiring and down right boring. But you know it was good. I just kinda wish we could've got more people to come. But it is what it is. God got it all in control.

Next week, I'm just gonna be so bored, well probably not. I can say it'll probably be uneventful, but you know you never know. If it is you'll know and if it's not you'll know so don't worry about that...

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No BB update, didn't see it tonight of course becuz of VBS, updation on it tomm....
Short(er) post.
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Updations! Again.

Hey another day in my world....
read if you care, even if you don't you should probably read it anywayz...

VBS Updation

Pretty kool, Still really enjoying teaching the kids, some crazy stuff going with some VBS staff (heard from director's mouth herself: people showing up late, blah blah), but it's all good. It'll all be done in 2 days. Today's lesson was about Peter denying Christ (well the whole week has been about Peter and his relationship with Jesus) and basically I'm like what was wrong with this people, jokingly.

Like Jesus was like to Peter you're going to denying me 3 times before the rooster crows, and Peter's like NO, I would never to that (I'm sure he was very serious). But he sure did deny him three times. But I mean how are you supposed to respond about that to Jesus, "Yeha, you know what Jesus, I am". But anywayz basically the lesson was about forgivness, even though Peter denied him 3 times, Jesus still forgave him. Amazing. So forgiving.

But yeha that was today's lesson. I remember Tyler Perry talked about forgivness on one his plays, that's a heavy and really serious topic that people don't really recognize. People be carry around stuff against people that they should just let go, it ain't no good for you to walk around with that stuff. Forgive and let it go. Cause it ain't doing nobody no good.

And I think that's becoming more apparent for me being a teacher, you gotta realize that people are human, they make mistakes, that's the whole point of forgivness, ain't nobody gonna be perfect, we try, but we not. So why hold on to this stuff, that's pretty much gon happen anywayz, I mean if ain't one thing then it's another. but yeha....

sorry for the rambling (but this is my blog...soooooo bite me! )

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BB Updation

this was the first thing I watched today, there was nothin on tv. Anywayz, so remember how I was saying Ronnie was thinking about backdooring Russell? He didn't do it (SUCKA!). I mean I kinda didn't want him to do it cuz I felt like people were ganging upon Russell and they wanted him to go for personal reasons (stupid), like he cussed Lydia out or something. And Lydia started like crying and was like "no one should be talked to like that". I think she had to be faking, you can't be expecting people to meet 12 strangers, and not expect to cussed out at some point, i mean yeha. so she wanted him out, and I'm like really?.

But anywayz Ronnie put up,Jordan (the ditzy blonde, like really she didn't/doesn't know what people mean when they say "it's a quarter till", basically she didn't know what a "quarter" is in clock time) so now it's Jordan up against Laura, both of the Popular clique. Really don't care who goes home, but of course, I'll be watching on Thursday, no Friday, I guess.

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I don't have another topic to rant, actually I do but it's so important it's a whole nother post...
so Random Picture!

(yeha don't have anything to say....???)

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!

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VBS Update

2nd day completeo! yeha! pretty kool, alot like yesterday, but still had fun nevertheless. We pretty much had the same children from yesterday, so I was really trying to know their names & charactersitcs now. There's a couple of "bad" ones: one that just wants to talk all the time, and the other is just like crazy...

It's kinda hard, to me, to teach kids about God, well not hard, but just really difficult, unless you really make it at a level where they can understand, but I think most of them get the basic concept, they just don't seem like their paying attention. I don't know. pretty kool day, today.

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Tyler Perry Trailer

For his movie, "I can do bad all by myself" has been released. Starring Tariji P. Henson, Mary J. Blige (we'll see), Gladys Knight (we'll also see). & Some guy Rodriquez can't remember it exactly oh, and Tyler Perry. Of course I'll go see this, and I'm expecting mucho drama, which is what I love! so I'll probably like it. You can find the trailer here.

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WTF?!

I don't think dudes should have words in their hair, but whatev. I think this is a dude from Pretty Ricky on the set of their new video "Tipsy". Funny thing is I saw this pic earlier today, and I didn't notice the word tipsy till I saw it again. Just a mess tho.

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Pat Fitzgerald, Hall of Famer

The Coach of the Wildcats was inducted into the College Football Hall of Fame, not for coaching, but for being a player @ NU in '95. He wons some awards that I don't want to look the name up. But anywayz dude was a beast on defense. This once again makes me excited about NU football season. AHH!

yeha that's it.
Update tomm about BB & other stuff...

PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Updations!

BB Update

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Would've update about this on Sunday but i didn't feel like it. anywayz Ronnie is HOH, he put up Laura & Jeff (who's from the Chi)...His plan is to back door Ronnie, an Athlete, so maybe that'll happen. I could be down with that. This seems to happen every season. If you come out too strong, or that you're a really good competetitor, i mean people try to get the greatest threat out. So Ronnie is defintely being smart. Well see what happens Tuesday, but I probably won't see the actually episode until Wed (and therefore won't update til then) because I'm doing VBS this week.
yeha

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VBS Update

VBS started today, got 4 mo days left. Okay, so I told you I was an asst. teacher for primaries (6-8 yrs old). Turns out today the guy who was supposed to teach the class said he couldn't make it (I kinda had the gut feeling this would happen) but um I would have to teach, which was no problem (suprsingly) except I didn't have any teaching material whatsoever, because I was only had assiting materials. So I started teaching for 5 mins, I had no idea what to do. but my mom made the executive decision to combine the two primary class, which ironically is what was planned at first, but anywayz it was pretty funny & fun.

Cuz my auntie was teaching the other class, and she's like crazy. I really enjoyed myself. She's an actual teacher so it was kool to see what she did. Like we had got done with the story, and she was asking questions, but only one kid was answering, so she was like he's going to candy tommorrow. just basically to encourage the other students to answer questions. just glad everything worked out though. Should be an interesting week.

oh a funny thing happen, we were talkin about sin, like you shouldn't do wrong stuff. and my auntie was like you shouldn't lie or whatev (yeha blame it on the memory). and this boy named Charles, who could not stop talking the whole time, said (paraphased of course) "people were lying on me saying I hit a girl, but didn't nobody believe me, but I did choke that boy" , funniest thing ever.

hahaha

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Chris Brown is Sorry

He posted a youtube video in which he's apolgizing for the thing with Rihanna. I'm glad he made the video, so it would be official, I feel it wasn't necessary (at least for me). As long as he got forgiveness from God & Rihanna its all good. That's all that I hope is that he apolgized to her. It's all good though cuz I'm not mad it, never was I, people make mistakes, we're all human, yes even Chris Brown. Even if you know something is terribly wrong, that doesn't mean you won't do it. But its good. He did it, and he's apolgizing. Good.

here's the vid,



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alright that's it,
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!

Random Tidbits

in my head all day........
booty dew - by the GS boyz, they're the people who did the Stanky (eww) Leg song.
I have no idea why it was in my head all day. I think I just maybe want do the booty dew.
peep the video:



(do the booty dew, do the booty dew)<---that's all I been singing.(sadness ensues :()

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today,
I helped with VBS (vacation bible school) at my church (well actually my mom is the director of VBS this year so I had no choice) It was kool I guess. I mean I actually got to see the neighborhood my church was in, since I don't really live there.

I'll be assisting teaching a class of i think 7-9 yr olds. It should be kool. Kids are always something else. VBS starts on 20th lasting through the 24th. Five days. Should be interesting. yeha...

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so I posted my "project" of the summer on the 'tube today. It's just me doing crazy stuff with my webcam. Also there's excerpts of a convo with Dan Shin (thought some parts of it were funny, and plus it changes up the dynamics of the video). anywayz watch it. it's kool, i think.



exploring the files on my home comp. (it's like the only one i use cuz I can't really get (steal) wireless with my laptop like anywhere. SUCKS!) and I found this old video I made in like the 10th grade (idk) its only like 50 seconds...but it's kool i think. i posted it on myspace way back ago. and I was trying to get it on the 'tube earlier, but I could, i'll figure it out. but anywayz check this one out too....

All about me


* these videos may make me seem really vain, but that's not the case. I just get uber bored...and these videos happen. but really I don't really care if I come off as vain. cuz I'm not. but whatev...hahaaha*


yeha that's it.
wait u kno what just because I like you ...
I'm gonna post a random pic.

(I guess cats are the new Lindsey Lohan)

hahahhaa im hilarious
anywayz
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!!!