wowza.
anyhoos. I was just gonna update a bit.
I'm on Christmas break. and basically it's been awesome. sleeping in has definitely been the best part.
i'm gonna miss it next week when i'm back to the hustle and bustle.
but i'm guess i'm excited to get back in the classroom. do i want to? NO. but my life will return to something meaningful. so far over break though, i've been crossing things off my things-to-do-over-winter-break-that don't-involve-work-TO DO LIST. one which includes furnishing my apt. I have so much space....but things are coming together at least my living room which is koolio awesome. I feel like I live here more now...other than that I haven't crossed too many other things off my list cuz i'm lazy...but i'm alright with that...i rested for realz.....
back to school stuff now, gotta change my mindset. Flip the switch from lazy to productive-ish. Overall, teaching is better. i mean definitely looking back to the beginning I did alot of stuff classroom management wise that was wrong or more so I didn't even know what to do. there's so much stuff I feel like I'm fighting in classroom that could've been avoided completely in the beginning....and I feel like still discovering who I am as a teacher and how to make that come across to my students. Like I really don't know who Mr.A is. And how that's different from the person I am out of school.
But I know that I'll definitely be prepared for next year...setting up procedures and routines and defining the boundaries more strictly (or at least try to). But you know I love my students all of them, even though I feel like I do way to much for them. And truly I just want them all to succeed in my class. But I don't know if I always express that because I'm so lost/overwhelmed/tired.
I guess that would be one of my goal for the second half of the year...
I think I've definitely been self-centered, concentrating alot of myself in classroom....because I'm trying to learn how to live the adult life and how I am supposed to be a teacher (it's my first year and all)
but I defintiely need to put the focus back on the students, no matter what's going on with me. Think about what are they doing. Then based on their performance think about how can I improve.
Another goal I think, would be around the mathematics...I don't know if I often show my excitement for the math. show them the cool stuff. Yeah I want them to be able to do stuff. solve certain problems graph this blah blah. But it would help to show the importance of mathematics things to me. whether that some interesting background or presenting in a real life context. I would just really like to change my students perception of mathematics. like it's so ridiculous how easily students give up on math and how for whatever they don't think they can be good at it...
I got like five million more goals pop in my mind as I'm writing this..parents, motivation, failing students....I can just do alot better. and I know I still got a long way to go. I'm just glad it's better. Am I still as happy as I thought I would be? No. But it's better. my students like/respect for the most. And I know they all want to learn. I need to help them get there better-er..
one day I'll be effective. one day.
here's a picture I took of my dog Buster.
He was scaring the crap outta me today...
that's it.
PEACE & CHICKEN GREASE!
